Thursday, April 16, 2015


Can there ever be a moment when the eagles fail to soar
Or the mosses on the rocks just fall away
When the oceans fill with waters still
Reflections of the colours black and grey
When the ending ever story of the human side of life
Reduces to a trickle in a storm
When the sweet angelic voices of the choristers abate
And the roaring of the wind becomes the norm

There’s an answer to this question in the movement of the days
And the circled dance of Sun and Planet Earth
For as sure as romance blossoms and sustains the inner soul
The promise of emotion proves her worth

For there can never be a moment when I will ever love you less
Nor a moment when my heart will drift away
Nor a turning of the circle that holds us in this space
Where this love forever holds her sway

So certain am I thus of our lovers’ sweet embrace
Of the bonds that bind us through and through
That I promise to be here even when my end has come
To whisper just 3 words….I love you.


Monday, April 13, 2015

Maybe everything was meant to be this way...

The Universe may have f***** me over BIG TIME when it came to having kids. 4 miscarriages and almost losing Brenton when I was almost 7 weeks pregnant (a miracle that pregnancy continued given I hemorrhaged badly directly after my first ultrasound that had showed a viable pregnancy with heartbeat). But as my sister Jodie once said you may have only ended up with one child Kim but boy oh boy did you get a good one! The 'Little Golden Book' baby in looks and nature, a loving, gentle, funny, kind and thoughtful child who has always been a pleasure to parent, and now a 21 year old handsome young man whose depth of character and maturity belies his years. Mother's day is on the horizon. This morning Brenton told me that he wants to book/pay for my favorite Bed & Breakfast in the rainforest for myself and Heartpoet for two nights as my Mother's Day gift. To let him know which two days I prefer and he will sort his work roster around this so that he is not working those days and can better care for our home/pets as he works late shifts for the most part.

This mumma hen had grand plans from a very young age for 3 perhaps 4 children. However I have learnt that no matter how hard you try to plan your life - life has a plan for you all of it's own. A huge life lesson for me. Despite my lot in life my cup is forever half full, never half empty. Each and every day I give thanks that Brenton is part of my life's plan.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

A Dance

If you've seen a dance before...if you've seen a dance called two human beings turning towards each other and supporting and caring and honoring each other then hopefully it's easier for you to then have that memory and maybe know that that dance is possible and reproduce it. You have some sort of resource - you know it's possible. If you've never seen that dance (that many of us haven't) and you don't even know what the dance looks like it's OK. Even if you have never seen what a good relationship looks like (I ended my first marriage) and you have had negative parenting (like I had) you can still turn and find a partner and you can still start to develop a loving bond. Oftentimes the longing for this connection is so powerful that if people get half the chance (like I did) even if they have never really seen it in action (and some part of their brains says it doesn't even exist), if they get half the chance they will risk and reach for it. And if they get a positive response they will risk and reach again. So even if you have had negative experiences in your past you can learn to do this. You can learn to trust and open up and reach and love. And when you do it grows you. It literally grows you as a person. People in secure relationships feel better about themselves, they have a more articulated view of who they are, they trust themselves more, they are more resilient if they face failure. 

History does not have to repeat.
I made sure of that.
I took back my heart -
no longer theirs to break.

The minute Heartpoet stood in front of me with his dance card I knew he was different. I could feel him tuning in to my mind/heart/soul. I could feel him moving, I knew what foot he was on and I just knew that he knew what foot I was on. It's about engagement. A baby is born with the need to be loved - and never outgrows it. We need to feel valued, we need to know we matter. If we call and no one comes we wither and die in a relationship. Sex is an act of coordination it's like a dance. Emotional presence and practice makes for very good sex. Sex without any emotional connection is like dancing without music. Making love to someone that you really love and are bonded with is the ultimate sex. If you truly know about love you are switched on enough to understand that a long term relationship is also about missing each others steps, stepping on each others toes (unintentionally hurting each other) and then turning back and falling in love again. Falling in love again and again in the same relationship throughout your lifetime.

December 2000 my inner voice whispered...
"It's time to take a risk sweetheart."
So I bravely...
Turned, reached and risked.
Stay true to your inner voice my friends.
It will lead you to your dream.


Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Rock On - Saved From The Knackery

This pretty pony thought his/her days were numbered.
Tossed to the side of the kerb on hard rubbish collection day.
He/she caught Heartpoet's eye
 whilst he was out and about performing a RAK.
 He/she looked up at him with beseeching eyes
with a look as if to say...

"Hoove you goin'?
Let me whisper in your lil ones ears
 and breathe on their hearts...
you will never regret it."

Easy to handle and float.
Safely home and hosed (literally no pun intended).
Mane and tail require a total makeover.
Coat requires a few brush strokes.
Saddle a quick clean and condition.
Despite his/her vintage years a perfect beginners pony.
No hoof rot to be found.
As sure footed and bomb proof as they come!

One of Heartpoet's favorite TV shows is 
Heartpoet has never taken on
 a rescue/renovation of his own before.
So this will be a first.
Driven by thoughts of future grandbabies.
*No pressure Brenton* hehehe.
A labor of love.
Do let me know
 if you would like to see the finished result!

This precious Lil' Miss
(a treasured relative of mine) 
will be able to rock on til her hearts content
whenever visiting from interstate.
I seriously *melt* with each new photo sent.
She is quite the character!

Our pretty pony (he or she?) needs a name! 
Suggestions anyone?


I Must Confess

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Say you will?

Reason 1,000,000,001 why I love Heartpoet

He spies the dress pictured below for sale
 and buys it for me because...
 he knew it would look great on me 
and he knew that I would love it.

"Stunning 100% Silk gown for sale. 
Bought from "Living Silk" in Paddington
 for a family members wedding that was cancelled! 
Paid almost $800 as it is of the finest, hand loomed quality, 
asking only $100 now. 
Size 10-12 
Colour is Raspberry and the French lace and ribbon is black."

And he was right

We have an anniversary coming up?
April 2001 Brenton & I relocated to Brisbane
to reside with our Poet.

I'm thinking it's a renew your vows...
 then go away for a romantic long weekend kinda dress...
 doncha think?

*No pressure or anything Heartpoet*

Say you will? ;)

I promise to sing to you when all the music dies...


Friday, March 6, 2015


Vintage window upcycled.
 Rustic driftwood spells out...
It's far from perf. It's a tad shabby.
But two of my favorites...
Vintage & Love
$10 how could I not!
Just got to find the right spot in our garden to hang it!

Weather: Autumn is usually my favorite time of year in Brisbane. Lovely sun kissed days followed by cooler crisp nights. Autumn this year however has kicked off with a heatwave. Our saving grace is air conditioning in both our home and vehicle. Summer has dragged on long enough. I am starting to crave lovingly prepared hearty winter fare, long invigorating walks, a glass of red and a good book by the fire, a plump feather filled vintage eiderdown on the end of our beds etc.

Listening: 'And I Love Her' by Passenger.

Eating: Dinner tonight? Homemade zucchini noodles aka 'zoodles' tossed in a zingy homemade pesto with grilled eggplant, cherry tomatoes, capers and topped with crunchy pine nuts. Dessert? Fresh berries with maple cream. Combine sour cream and maple syrup in a small bowl; stir with a whisk. Combine berries, and spoon into dessert dishes; pour maple cream over berries.

Drinking: Tracy from Sunny Corner Farm sent me the nicest tea to try the other day. Twinings Orange and Cinnamon. Bright and fragrant indeed. Will be popping a pkt in my trolley when next at the shops methinks.

Wearing: Vintage bohemian sundress, boho triple wrap bracelet, espadrilles and a smile.

Feeling: Happy that I won a 'A Wicked Scrub' pamper hamper (valued at $120 product + courier delivery) for a long time dear friend who with her lot in life deserves some pampering.

Wanting: More one on one time with my Poet. With my study load, his work load, family, pets and household responsibilities we need to find more get dressed up fancy and head out and about time. We have locked in a date night with a booking for dinner/a night at the theatre and have also booked a few nights away. A bigger (most exciting) trip is in the planning stages for next year.

Needing: Stevie Wonder has been quoted as saying "What I am not confused about is the world needing much more love, no hate, no prejudice, no bigotry and more unity, peace and understanding. Period". Nuff said really hey!

Thinking: You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.

Enjoying: The small things. It's always the small things.

Missing/lacking: Inspiration (ideas) for my next round of random acts of kindness. Hmmm.

Watching: My Kitchen Rules on TV. Need to pre-order the latest season of Downton Abbey on Blu-ray DVD.

Reading: A Vintage Wedding by author Katie Fforde.

What's on the menu at your place tonight funsters?
How's the weather in your neck of the woods?
Heard a good tune or read a good book lately?
Are you a deep thinker like moi?
RAK'd anyone of late?


Thursday, March 5, 2015

Happy (Milestone) Birthday Heartpoet

"Thinking Out Loud"
When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are
Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are.